Sundays

Every Sunday my family and I go to my parents house on the farm and hang out with nana and papa. I use to love visting with my parents, but lately all I get out of it is a few good minutes followed by hours of not happy, having anxiety, and just feel depressed when I leave. If I could go to my parents alone it would be heaven at least maybe better. If I am not crying depressed, looking for a way out, I feel so angry on the inside then sometimes, I feel nothing at all. Like you could set me on fire and I would'nt give a shit. I feel like I am losing my mind due to all the emotional ups and downs my body battels everyday feeling like I got hit by a dump truck. But a positive note I am doing well taking my medication everyday. Whoop Dee FUcking Do!!!!!